The balloons are so colorful! It's fun! I love colors and I love balloons. We have a lot of these at school. When these things were blown I wasn't in my best outfit so I just took photos. I am using this photo as wallpaper of my laptop. Kinda cool, happy and colorful. Full of life and bright.
As I was talking to a friend on the phone, I said "I've decided to be single." And my friend replied, "Don't eat what you cannot chew."
That was a very short sentence but meant a lot. Maybe at the moment I said that because I was not in the mood. It is true that in life before we say, do, decide and react on things, we need to make sure that we know what we are doing. When we were young, our parents feed us. The food that they gave is instant. Since we don't have enough strong teeth our food our chewable. We can swallow it so quickly too. Our life then was always guided, guarded and everything was provided by our parents. Life was fun and easy. We are in the process of growing and learning but with complete support from our love ones. The support is given in a silver platter. As we grow and mature, we receive freedom because we already knew the difference between 'right and wrong', or 'yes or no'. We get the freedom to choose what we want to wear, what we want to play, who do we want to hang out with and most specially what do we want to eat. As the choices grew wider and more advanced we become confused and lost. These numerous choices challenge us to apply what we have learned through school, experience and life itself on how to deal with the mystery that unfolds in our daily activities. My friend is right, we need to choose only the food that we can chew. Choose the song that we can sing. Choose the words we say that we can stand by for it. Choose the decisions we want to make. Now that I am a grown up, my decisions affect the people around me so much.
"Don't eat what you cannot chew." "Eat chewables."
Mmmm..... (inhale 1, 2, 3, exhale 1, 2, 3, inhale 1,2,3, exhale) Relax, slow down, breathe... It is very important to remind ourselves these things. In a fast-paced society, people need to learn how to relax, slow down and breathe. Life is fast. People are stressed out.
Believing in oneself even when no one else does is what I've learned a few days ago. Life is not a straight line without any humps or gaps along the way. Challenges are present to test our versatility. Successful day is not successful unless you haven't met an attitude tester situation. Small or big issues have lessons to learn from. People become lax and neglect responsibilities when eveything is quiet. People are used to moving their butts when only there is a loud explosion for the negligence and irresponsibility discovered.
Damage has been done. Mistakes may still be corrected but a scar will be left as a reminder of past mistakes. Since damage has been done, things had been neglected, a responsible person should mend the mistakes. It's so difficult to accept the fact that even though a person had been working so hard, still missed some. Mending mistakes are difficult in the process, but soon as everything has been in order it's a big relief.
In every days life, it is important to 'breathe' once in a while. Having few breaks would enlighten our loads in life. When encountering difficult situations and obstacles, it is better to 'breathe' before reacting. People make mistakes and we need to accept that we are not perfect. If have mistakes, mend, learn, take note of lessons and go on with life.
I feel so down tonight. Don't know why. But I'll try to make some hypothesis. Let's say because I am a little tired. Maybe because I have an upcoming parents' meeting. Or someone has not been talking to me lately.
Well, I cannot force someone to love me. But for all I know, deep inside and in every vessel and corner of my heart, "I Love You". The clip above from youtube is what I feel now. The background song is for my love. I love this song. It's so appropriate for what I am wishing now. *sigh* The clip below is the real video of the song "My Immortal".
My Immortal
by Evanescence
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus]
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
While searching youtube.com for some interesting songs and uploads to share, I thought of the boy who stole my heart. I suddenly remembered the song he always sings to me. The song is "Love of a Lifetime" by Firehouse. As I was listening to it, I clearly remembered the days and events in our past life. But life is really like that. Many people will come and go in my life, others may make a mark, some stay but most of them go. It is only the true and right for me that stays. I can see them in my friends. So sad to say, there is no lover yet. Though getting a greater number now in the age factor, I can say I am happy where I am now.
Among the videos I have seen, the video above with the "disney princesses" was the best. My love for the Disney cartoon plus a very memorable song is a very good combination. Below is the lyrics of the song. Hope you enjoy listening as I share to you my thoughts in life.
Love of a Lifetime
by Firehouse
I guess the time was right for us to say,
We'd take our time and live our lives together day by day.
Make a wish and send it on a prayer.
We know our dreams can all come true if loving we can share.
With you I'll never wonder, will you be there for me
With you I'll never wonder, you're the right one for me.
I finally found a love of a lifetime.
A love to last my whole life through.
I finally found a love of a lifetime.
Forever in my heart, I finally found a love of a lifetime.
With every kiss our love is like brand new,
And every star up in the sky was made for me and you.
Still we both know that the road is long.
We know that we will be together because our love is strong.
I finally found a love of a lifetime.
A love to last my whole life through.
I finally found a love of a lifetime.
Forever in my heart,
I finally found a love of a lifetime.
I finally found a love of a lifetime.
A love to last my whole life through.
I finally found a love of a lifetime.
Forever in my heart I finally found a love of a lifetime.
Love of lifetime.
I finally found a love.
Forever in my heart I finally found a love of a lifetime.
This article was submitted to Helium.com (August 25, 2007)
I had been surfing the internet for quite awhile to see what will make me feel better. This is one of my way of getting the right attitude when the world is not agreeing with my plans. Writing usually releases the hidden emotions/feelings that I carry everyday. Sometimes happy, sometimes sadness. Well, maybe, I realized I had been in the run for sometime so I need to relax and rest for a while. I’m a busy person, I do this so I won’t be thinking much of the future ahead but I can’t avoid it.
As I grow old, I have to think of the future. If I sometimes forget it, people around me remind me about it so how do you think will I pass through it? I plan to take life one at a time as it pass everyday but sometimes they all come in one event or period of my life. Sometimes it’s very weakening but I can’t be defeated, I control myself. Nobody can. It’s my choice, my life. There will be people who will care to support, help and give their advices but it’s still my final decision. And I know I have to be responsible for all my actions. Funny thing is they can’t just get enough of me. I am happy for all the things I do today but some people are not. People are not really contented, they always have to stick their nose to other people’s life. I am undergoing a double fallback in life today but how I reacted? Well, I’m reflecting over it but not for long. I have to start moving. I just resign from the company I’d been working for a year and a month ago, I broke up with an almost a year relationship. It’s not easy since I am not working in my home country. Times like this it’s really your family whom you could turn to for support. And they had been so good so far. By next week, I would start in a new company in another place.
You see, people need to rest. Now, that I have gathered enough strength again, I am ready for a new chapter of my life. When I get tired, I rest but I don’t stop. Try to enjoy life, it maybe bitter or sweet, it’s part of the journey.
This article was submitted to Helium.com (Aug. 20,2007)
Yes, I do believe that facing and having a good life is all about attitude. It is very easy to say, but it needs a lot of love to yourself. What if our right attitude was mislead into so much pain? The answer is still attitude. How you respond to such situation is the result of your future. I am always a very positive person but its not always that my attitude towards life is good. Once you have experience the darkest and longest day of your life, just take a break, slow down and recollect. Like attracts like is the thing we did not discuss in school. But it is true, if we possess a positive outlook towards life, everything will be good to us. The more we believe that though life has many challenges, these are things that will make us strong. The more negative thoughts we put in our mind, the more it attracts negative vibes too.
Learn to see things in a positive way. Be honest to yourself. If you are too negative, just count your blessings. What are these? Let’s start from your body, be thankful that you have a complete structure. Then the things you have that others don’t, but never compare for we can’t have the same things and blessings as others have.
Stress in our fast phase society will somehow challenge our attitude. Everything of what we believe in, people we cling on will all be a factor on the way we will use our attitude. This is a test of how determined we really are about our present attitude.
All I can say is that if you are tired, take a rest. Let the past be past. We are all unique. What our parents or friends have experienced were their choices not ours. We make our life, not others. We decide what is good for us and what makes us happy. We get hurt because we allow them to. If you have the right attitude on how to make your life, you will go a long way. It’s not yet too late. You can always redirect your attitude. Be firm. Noone is above you except you!
I am an amateur photographer. The love for taking photos and fascination of how the things would look like inside the lenses kept pushing me to be more creative even without proper training. My four eyes (I wear glasses) are guiding me what few people can see. The experience and result is totally great. Here are some of my collection of photos on flowers. I added some quotes for some flavor.
Every flower is a soul blossoming in Nature. (Gerard de Nerval)
Joy in looking and comprehending is nature's most beautiful gift. (Albert Einstein)
Gentle day's flower - The hummingbird competes with the stillness of the air. (Chogyam Trungpa)
Adopt the pace of nature: her secret is patience. (Ralph Waldo Emerson)
All things are artificial for nature is the art of God. (Thomas Browne)
Autumn is a second spring when every leaf is a flower. (Albert Camus)
Come forth into the light of things, let nature be your teacher. (William Wordsworth)
Earth laughs in flowers. (Ralph Waldo Emerson)
In every walk with nature one receives far more than he seeks. (John Muir)
In all things of nature there is something of the marvelous. (Aristotle)
When we were young, our parents feed us. The food that they gave is instant. Since we don't have enough strong teeth our food our chewable. We can swallow it so quickly too. Our life then was always guided, guarded and everything was provided by our parents. Life was fun and easy. We are in the process of growing and learning but with complete support from our love ones. The support is given in a silver platter.
As we grow and mature, we receive freedom because we already knew the difference between 'right and wrong', or 'yes or no'. We get the freedom to choose what we want to wear, what we want to play, who do we want to hang out with and most specially what do we want to eat. As the choices grew wider and more advanced we become confused and lost. These numerous choices challenge us to apply what we have learned through school, experience and life itself on how to deal with the mystery that unfolds in our daily activities. 
My friend is right, we need to choose only the food that we can chew. Choose the song that we can sing. Choose the words we say that we can stand by for it. Choose the decisions we want to make. Now that I am a grown up, my decisions affect the people around me so much.
