The balloons are so colorful! It's fun! I love colors and I love balloons. We have a lot of these at school. When these things were blown I wasn't in my best outfit so I just took photos. I am using this photo as wallpaper of my laptop. Kinda cool, happy and colorful. Full of life and bright.
As I was talking to a friend on the phone, I said "I've decided to be single." And my friend replied, "Don't eat what you cannot chew."
That was a very short sentence but meant a lot. Maybe at the moment I said that because I was not in the mood. It is true that in life before we say, do, decide and react on things, we need to make sure that we know what we are doing. When we were young, our parents feed us. The food that they gave is instant. Since we don't have enough strong teeth our food our chewable. We can swallow it so quickly too. Our life then was always guided, guarded and everything was provided by our parents. Life was fun and easy. We are in the process of growing and learning but with complete support from our love ones. The support is given in a silver platter. As we grow and mature, we receive freedom because we already knew the difference between 'right and wrong', or 'yes or no'. We get the freedom to choose what we want to wear, what we want to play, who do we want to hang out with and most specially what do we want to eat. As the choices grew wider and more advanced we become confused and lost. These numerous choices challenge us to apply what we have learned through school, experience and life itself on how to deal with the mystery that unfolds in our daily activities. My friend is right, we need to choose only the food that we can chew. Choose the song that we can sing. Choose the words we say that we can stand by for it. Choose the decisions we want to make. Now that I am a grown up, my decisions affect the people around me so much.
"Don't eat what you cannot chew." "Eat chewables."
Mmmm..... (inhale 1, 2, 3, exhale 1, 2, 3, inhale 1,2,3, exhale) Relax, slow down, breathe... It is very important to remind ourselves these things. In a fast-paced society, people need to learn how to relax, slow down and breathe. Life is fast. People are stressed out.
Believing in oneself even when no one else does is what I've learned a few days ago. Life is not a straight line without any humps or gaps along the way. Challenges are present to test our versatility. Successful day is not successful unless you haven't met an attitude tester situation. Small or big issues have lessons to learn from. People become lax and neglect responsibilities when eveything is quiet. People are used to moving their butts when only there is a loud explosion for the negligence and irresponsibility discovered.
Damage has been done. Mistakes may still be corrected but a scar will be left as a reminder of past mistakes. Since damage has been done, things had been neglected, a responsible person should mend the mistakes. It's so difficult to accept the fact that even though a person had been working so hard, still missed some. Mending mistakes are difficult in the process, but soon as everything has been in order it's a big relief.
In every days life, it is important to 'breathe' once in a while. Having few breaks would enlighten our loads in life. When encountering difficult situations and obstacles, it is better to 'breathe' before reacting. People make mistakes and we need to accept that we are not perfect. If have mistakes, mend, learn, take note of lessons and go on with life.
I feel so down tonight. Don't know why. But I'll try to make some hypothesis. Let's say because I am a little tired. Maybe because I have an upcoming parents' meeting. Or someone has not been talking to me lately.
Well, I cannot force someone to love me. But for all I know, deep inside and in every vessel and corner of my heart, "I Love You". The clip above from youtube is what I feel now. The background song is for my love. I love this song. It's so appropriate for what I am wishing now. *sigh* The clip below is the real video of the song "My Immortal".
My Immortal
by Evanescence
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus]
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
While searching youtube.com for some interesting songs and uploads to share, I thought of the boy who stole my heart. I suddenly remembered the song he always sings to me. The song is "Love of a Lifetime" by Firehouse. As I was listening to it, I clearly remembered the days and events in our past life. But life is really like that. Many people will come and go in my life, others may make a mark, some stay but most of them go. It is only the true and right for me that stays. I can see them in my friends. So sad to say, there is no lover yet. Though getting a greater number now in the age factor, I can say I am happy where I am now.
Among the videos I have seen, the video above with the "disney princesses" was the best. My love for the Disney cartoon plus a very memorable song is a very good combination. Below is the lyrics of the song. Hope you enjoy listening as I share to you my thoughts in life.
Love of a Lifetime
by Firehouse
I guess the time was right for us to say,
We'd take our time and live our lives together day by day.
Make a wish and send it on a prayer.
We know our dreams can all come true if loving we can share.
With you I'll never wonder, will you be there for me
With you I'll never wonder, you're the right one for me.
I finally found a love of a lifetime.
A love to last my whole life through.
I finally found a love of a lifetime.
Forever in my heart, I finally found a love of a lifetime.
With every kiss our love is like brand new,
And every star up in the sky was made for me and you.
Still we both know that the road is long.
We know that we will be together because our love is strong.
I finally found a love of a lifetime.
A love to last my whole life through.
I finally found a love of a lifetime.
Forever in my heart,
I finally found a love of a lifetime.
I finally found a love of a lifetime.
A love to last my whole life through.
I finally found a love of a lifetime.
Forever in my heart I finally found a love of a lifetime.
Love of lifetime.
I finally found a love.
Forever in my heart I finally found a love of a lifetime.
This article was submitted to Helium.com (August 25, 2007)
I had been surfing the internet for quite awhile to see what will make me feel better. This is one of my way of getting the right attitude when the world is not agreeing with my plans. Writing usually releases the hidden emotions/feelings that I carry everyday. Sometimes happy, sometimes sadness. Well, maybe, I realized I had been in the run for sometime so I need to relax and rest for a while. I’m a busy person, I do this so I won’t be thinking much of the future ahead but I can’t avoid it.
As I grow old, I have to think of the future. If I sometimes forget it, people around me remind me about it so how do you think will I pass through it? I plan to take life one at a time as it pass everyday but sometimes they all come in one event or period of my life. Sometimes it’s very weakening but I can’t be defeated, I control myself. Nobody can. It’s my choice, my life. There will be people who will care to support, help and give their advices but it’s still my final decision. And I know I have to be responsible for all my actions. Funny thing is they can’t just get enough of me. I am happy for all the things I do today but some people are not. People are not really contented, they always have to stick their nose to other people’s life. I am undergoing a double fallback in life today but how I reacted? Well, I’m reflecting over it but not for long. I have to start moving. I just resign from the company I’d been working for a year and a month ago, I broke up with an almost a year relationship. It’s not easy since I am not working in my home country. Times like this it’s really your family whom you could turn to for support. And they had been so good so far. By next week, I would start in a new company in another place.
You see, people need to rest. Now, that I have gathered enough strength again, I am ready for a new chapter of my life. When I get tired, I rest but I don’t stop. Try to enjoy life, it maybe bitter or sweet, it’s part of the journey.
This article was submitted to Helium.com (Aug. 20,2007)
Yes, I do believe that facing and having a good life is all about attitude. It is very easy to say, but it needs a lot of love to yourself. What if our right attitude was mislead into so much pain? The answer is still attitude. How you respond to such situation is the result of your future. I am always a very positive person but its not always that my attitude towards life is good. Once you have experience the darkest and longest day of your life, just take a break, slow down and recollect. Like attracts like is the thing we did not discuss in school. But it is true, if we possess a positive outlook towards life, everything will be good to us. The more we believe that though life has many challenges, these are things that will make us strong. The more negative thoughts we put in our mind, the more it attracts negative vibes too.
Learn to see things in a positive way. Be honest to yourself. If you are too negative, just count your blessings. What are these? Let’s start from your body, be thankful that you have a complete structure. Then the things you have that others don’t, but never compare for we can’t have the same things and blessings as others have.
Stress in our fast phase society will somehow challenge our attitude. Everything of what we believe in, people we cling on will all be a factor on the way we will use our attitude. This is a test of how determined we really are about our present attitude.
All I can say is that if you are tired, take a rest. Let the past be past. We are all unique. What our parents or friends have experienced were their choices not ours. We make our life, not others. We decide what is good for us and what makes us happy. We get hurt because we allow them to. If you have the right attitude on how to make your life, you will go a long way. It’s not yet too late. You can always redirect your attitude. Be firm. Noone is above you except you!
I am an amateur photographer. The love for taking photos and fascination of how the things would look like inside the lenses kept pushing me to be more creative even without proper training. My four eyes (I wear glasses) are guiding me what few people can see. The experience and result is totally great. Here are some of my collection of photos on flowers. I added some quotes for some flavor.
Every flower is a soul blossoming in Nature. (Gerard de Nerval)
Joy in looking and comprehending is nature's most beautiful gift. (Albert Einstein)
Gentle day's flower - The hummingbird competes with the stillness of the air. (Chogyam Trungpa)
Adopt the pace of nature: her secret is patience. (Ralph Waldo Emerson)
All things are artificial for nature is the art of God. (Thomas Browne)
Autumn is a second spring when every leaf is a flower. (Albert Camus)
Come forth into the light of things, let nature be your teacher. (William Wordsworth)
Earth laughs in flowers. (Ralph Waldo Emerson)
In every walk with nature one receives far more than he seeks. (John Muir)
In all things of nature there is something of the marvelous. (Aristotle)
June 14, 1995. It was the year of the pig. Forty six (46) students from different high schools of the Philippines met in room 205-2nd floor, College of Physical Therapy/Administration Building, University of the East Ramon Magsaysay Memorial Medical Center, Aurora Blvd., Quezon City for the school year 1995-1996. It was the first day of school and these 46 teenagers don't even know each other yet but are already very noisy. The first subject was 'General Psychology' under Mrs. de Guia. "1-C" is the first name given to this class because we are in our first year and section C. We are a group of average students at the beginning but mind you by the end of the year, five (5) students in the Dean's List are from this class. We are loud and proud of course. Since the day we met, we all became friends. We eat together in a nearby canteen, or stroll in the mall still as a whole though in little groups. There is a special bond growing in each one of us as the college life is challenging us. We have created a great friendship that we help each other in all subject matter. There is less competition but more on studying together and having fun together. We got the second name "The Bunch of Fools" from our computer teacher. He was fed up by the clever students' noise. He tried to carry his desk, but it was too heavy so instead he hit the desk with his hand, shouted "You bunch of fools!", and went out of the room slamming the door. (^_^)
We have been together in our special parties, field trips, and reunions. We are bonded by the different 'teasing' we playfully throw. We are happy people. As the years go by, some of us can't and didn't make it to finish the course. Some stayed and others left and changed their course. We remained friends. As I am writing this now, we are already friends for more or less 14 years. Next year, 2010 is the 15th year anniversary. We have lots of stories but I will put them in separate events. I miss you guys! Hope to see you on June 2010.
"A happy person is not a person in a certain set of circumstances, but rather a person with a certain set of attitudes." (by Hugh Downs)
The month of lovers is soon to end. Being single, the month of February doesn't really mean much to me. I don't hate it nor have anything against it. It's a beautiful month. Everywhere we, go there is a sign of love. Love is a powerful feeling that changes people to be better. As this month passes, people constantly asks me about my status in life. My only answer to all inquiries is "Time will come, he will arrive." I don't answer this to soothe my irritation to many concern people about the condition of my heart. I am a grown-up now. I understand life and its needs. But for now I am happy for what I am. Not all may understand and I am not asking them to understand because in life we have different roads to travel. Right now this is the road I am traveling ... being single at the time when most people would expect a woman to have a married life.
As in one of the books that I have read said "not every woman is popular with men". I assume I belong to this. That doesn't mean I have to be depress because of this. I firmly believe that we make our own life. Being single and happy is my life today. Happiness is derive from the choices we make.
"Happiness depends upon ourselves." (by Aristotle)
My mom and I had a seven day holiday trip to Beijing, China last year. It was Spring Festival Holiday in China. I grabbed the chance to meet my mom and spend time with her despite our busy lives. Even though for a short period of time, I know my mom had fun because I did.
Behind is the "Forbidden City".
The National Centre for
the Performing Arts
(Chinese: 国家大剧院)
aka the National Grand Theatre
"Tiananmen Square" photos.
Happy "close up" moments with mom. There is really a good feeling in bonding or spending precious moments with your family. She is the only one that I have and I love her so much. "I love you Mama. I miss you also!"
Waiting ... waiting ... and waiting. It takes a lot of patience and hope to wait. In life we wait for many things. It could be exam results, fulfillment of a dream, arrival of someone or just simply waiting for a wish and hope to come true. It's boring, its irritating, it's terrible, it's awful to wait for whatever it is. People are impatient creatures but if tested they last and win to be the most patient. Everything happens for a reason. To wait for things to happen or arrive at the right times takes sometime.
To wait is to hope. To hope is not to lose patience. To be bored is normal. To cry out loud is acceptable. But to lose hope is a no-no. Anything worth trying is worth waiting for. Life in general takes a lot of waiting. Determination and great discipline that will be developed along the process of this waiting period is a great help in the journey of life.
For so many years now, I'd been waiting for so many things. When I was younger I was always ask to wait. Waiting for my
mother to arrive, waiting for the food to be served, waiting for the older people to decide on a certain matter. Every child has a great patience in this waiting period. When we were young there is not much of an agitation in the waiting period. But as I grow, I still waited for things that matters and may affect my life. Examination results were the most awful thing to wait for at that time. The feeling is so terrible because the result or outcome may decide where the future will be nurture further. As the days become closer to the revelation or unveiling of the truth, my heart throbs nervously and crazily.
Now that I've grown in all aspects of life I am still waiting for so many things. I have gained knowledge and became strong in facing life so waiting most of the time is a 'mess up'. People at this stage usually cannot wait anymore. People become impatient and bored. Because of impatient attitude I happen to always mess up the waiting period. It's either I assume things to happen or predict the outcome. Waiting irritates me ...
But I can't do anything. I need to learn from my mistakes. Mistakes that I got very bad consequences. I need to grow. I became older but I didn't mature. It's better when I was younger because I have patience for waiting things to come and happen. But now its the other way around. I know everything happens for a reason.
I must learn to patiently wait. Waiting would mean I must slow down a little bit. I must rest from time to time. Looking around would be great to divert my attention and enjoy life as it comes every minute of the day. Everything has its time. If things are really meant to be mine then it will be. I must wait ... wait ... wait ... and wait. I know it will come ... very soon.
Life is an exciting existence of a human being on Earth. From childhood to adolescence life is a routine schedule. There is a pattern being followed or a rule set by the older people like our parents. When our parents are gone to work for our future, they entrust us to the people we call teachers. These teachers guide us and nurture our knowledge of the world to come in the future. Our response to their teaching depends on our behavior and willingness to grow. After school, parents play a great role for us to value what we have learned the whole day when they are busy.
As our existence goes on, we pass through different stages of education. Our education usually starts with kindergarten, primary/elementary, middle school (for other countries) high school and college/university. Through these years we are molded, trained and guided of who we want to become in the future. There are bright future for good students and there are adventurous future for risky students. Basically we design our life. It is us who makes it. As we grow older and graduate from school we venture in different kinds of life or way of living। This stage is memorable to most of us because this stage after graduation is the period where we search for jobs and start planning to be stable in life. People get married and begin the life they have prepared for so many years. In this stage we make mistakes but we do our best to solve the mistakes maturely though some are not successful in doing so.
In my opinion there is no certain age for a person to call its life already in the middle. You will feel it you are there because partly you have accomplished what you have ever wanted and still looking for more but still clueless of reality. It is like you know that you have prepared something for the place you want to go but you don't know where. This is the middle life.
The middle life for singles is the life where their career is soaring so high but their love life is zero। A time where everything is not balanced even how hard you try to organize it. Its like you are lost in the wilderness of nowhere. There are people who know how to get out of this place by finding love from their families. Some are stuck in the comfort of their friends. Most are married to their work.
It's really difficult to say how to get out of these emptiness. Its a fact that all of us pass a middle life where most of life us are comforted by love ones especially our families. If you have one, you are in good condition. If you've got friends, you're still lucky because in friendship there is love. But if none, it's not too late yet to look for one.
When we were young, our parents feed us. The food that they gave is instant. Since we don't have enough strong teeth our food our chewable. We can swallow it so quickly too. Our life then was always guided, guarded and everything was provided by our parents. Life was fun and easy. We are in the process of growing and learning but with complete support from our love ones. The support is given in a silver platter.
As we grow and mature, we receive freedom because we already knew the difference between 'right and wrong', or 'yes or no'. We get the freedom to choose what we want to wear, what we want to play, who do we want to hang out with and most specially what do we want to eat. As the choices grew wider and more advanced we become confused and lost. These numerous choices challenge us to apply what we have learned through school, experience and life itself on how to deal with the mystery that unfolds in our daily activities. 
My friend is right, we need to choose only the food that we can chew. Choose the song that we can sing. Choose the words we say that we can stand by for it. Choose the decisions we want to make. Now that I am a grown up, my decisions affect the people around me so much.
"A happy person is not a person in a certain set of circumstances, but rather a person with a certain set of attitudes." (by Hugh Downs) 
Behind is the "Forbidden City".
Waiting ... waiting ... and waiting. It takes a lot of patience and hope to wait. In life we wait for many things. It could be exam results, fulfillment of a dream, arrival of someone or just simply waiting for a wish and hope to come true. It's boring, its irritating, it's terrible, it's awful to wait for whatever it is. People are impatient creatures but if tested they last and win to be the most patient. Everything happens for a reason. To wait for things to happen or arrive at the right times takes sometime.
